Monday, March 12, 2012
Heartbroken. Here is a real slice of life.
My son Kobe is 13 now. Last summer he said, "Mom, I would like to spend more time with Dad. I want to live with him and come here every other weekend." Oh man! That killed me. :( I have dealt with it since then. The most hurtful part of it is that he has spent more time with his step mom than me. The worst though is that I and others have caught her saying things like, "My son Kobe..." Okay, she is his STEP mom; I get that. But she is NOT his mother. I am a good mom who works hard for my kids. Kobe is my baby and I am jealous for my children. Shouldn't every mother bear be? To make it worse, his dad has been working second shift for the last three months so I have tried to insist he stay with me during the week now. He still wants to go to his Dads and stay through the week. :'( I have tried to give it to God and pray but it hurts so bad. I have thought about making him stay with me, but that will only make him resent me. How do I release this and heal from it? Kobe acts like it is no big deal. He even bypassed me on Valentines and gave a Carnation to her after one of his wrestling meets. The team got them to give to their mothers. HELP!